Check-In With Your Heart (7 Day Challenge)

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Mental healthSocial Media is filled with influencers. Fitness, Self-Love, Motivational influencers that post all types of motivation for us throughout the day. I’ve signed up for several of these self-love challenges before and they definitely taught me a lot. But I’ve had a hard time finding people that can come together to talk about their Mental Health. So, I’ve decided to create a “Check-In With Your Heart” 7 Day Challenge. I wanted something intimate where people felt comfortable, supported and free to be themselves and talk about real life problems because that what Mental Illness is: a real-life problem that gets worst if you don’t have support or people to talk too.

Happy Body & LifeThis challenge will consist of 10 people (3 spots left!). Together, we will explore topics like Depression, Anxiety, Self-Care, Self-Love, Recognizing our triggers, resilience, strength, awareness and many other topics that will help us have breakthroughs in our Mental Illness journey. A private Facebook group is where most of our discussion and work will be done in so those that sign up for the challenge will be invited to the private facebook support group.

Throughout the week, printables will be available. Videos on the lesson for that day and an interactive quote or topic will be posted where each member can share what they’re comfortable sharing. You’ll have a chance to meet people from all around the world since this is a virtual challenge and it’s a great opportunity to meet someone new, learn something new and most importantly– take a week to dedicate to yourself. Allow yourself to grow, to go outside your comfort zone, to check-in with your Mental Health and to allow yourself to break through some of those fears and hardships that have been weighing heavy on you lately.

You are not alone and this challenge was designed to show people that. If you are interested in signing up, please DM me on my Instagram here:

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My Instagram Account

 

Or, fill out the contact form below and I will reserve your spot.

 

Until next time,
Namaste.
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Social Media Can Filter Only A Small Part of Motherhood

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Only on social media can I create the illusion that these precious boys are such well-behaved Angels 100% of the time. These pictures capture the beauty of childhood.  The truth is that only filters or the right angle of a picture will cover up my messy sheet on the bed, the pile of laundry in the corner and some dishes in the sink or hide the fact I just dealt with an hour long meltdown with my 6-year-old right before we snapped this shot

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The truth is that motherhood is friggin hard; It’s not always smiling and snuggles & in those hard moments, I felt alone for a long time. I compared myself to everyone, especially the “InstaMoms” that capture only the glitz and glamour of motherhood. I wanted to be the “old me” who felt good about herself. But then I realized I LOVED who I was evolving into through motherhood

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If your house doesn’t look like Pinterest, you’re still a good mom. And you are not failing because you didn’t get to make homemade lunches every day or because you didn’t send the kids to school in Cashmere sweaters. You are still a good mom. To our little ones, we’re the world; we are more than enough. And part of being a good mom is making sure you’re HAPPY because a happy mom makes a happy baby. 

 So as we honor the mothers in our lives this weekend, take a minute to realize what a badass mom YOU are.

If I’ve learned anything, it’s this belief that Mothers are the heart and soul in a family; If the heart isn’t taking care of herself than everything else will suffer.  So take the time to care for yourself. Take the idea of motherhood perfection and throw it out the window. Being in love with our children and feeling so grateful to be their parent can coexist with the reality that it’s also really, really hard. Allow yourself to be frustrated and “over the moon” in love with your child. Don’t shame yourself for having these feelings. It’s a reality. It’s a common theme that we all feel, but we don’t talk enough about. Take care of your mental health and don’t hold on to the guilt that comes naturally in the hard moments of parenting. In reality, we feel guilty because we love THAT much. Lean into that feeling. 

 

199e1fb32250bf0c455592a07c5feb15Different roads can lead to the same destination. We can parent 100 different ways & still raise happy, respectful, successful children. Don’t compare yourself to the InstaMoms. You keep rocking that messy hair bun, yoga pants and that heart of gold. You keep trying your best & keep doing what makes you happy so that you can keep shining and making this world a better place.

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Life Without Mental Health Medications

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Happy Spring Time!

Gosh, how time flies. I don’t know how I’ve let months past by since I posted last (especially since I love writing and find it so therapeutic). But I guess that’s what a hard pregnancy and giving birth to this beautiful boy that’s pictured below will do. Meet Luke; who has been keeping me rather busy and has me wrapped around his little finger already. *heartthrob*

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I thought I’d post an update on what life has been like since I’ve stopped taking my Bipolar and Depression medications. Please know that I don’t ever want to preach that you should be doing the same thing as me. It’s quite the opposite- I respect, value and understand that each and every one of us has our own unique journey as we adventure through life with Mental Illness(es). It’s actually kind of a beautiful thing. But, I’m just here, open and honest, about experiences with my own Mental Health in hopes one less person feels alone and it’s a bonus if you end up relating or discovering even one tidbit of information that can be helpful to you.
If you’ve been diagnosed before with any type of Mental Health Illness, you’ve probably done what most of us do and run to our trustworthy-know it all- friend: Google… to find more information to your questions. When I was first diagnosed, I spent hours on end reading other peoples journey with Bipolar and watching countless YouTube videos. That’s when I eventually learned some people advocated for taking medication and some decided to manage their illnesses without. I truly believe it’s up to each person to decide what’s best for them because there is no right way or wrong way.  I do think that it’s equally important to do your research though and become your #1 health advocate too. What I mean by that is to try your best to forget the fear that stigma creates and ask questions when you’re with your doctor, pay close attention to the side effects of your medications and build only the best regime d623ab2de42d17ec1c0ac4153d5bd845.jpgand routine for YOU. We all know that healthcare isn’t a “one size fits all” gig, especially with Mental Illnesses.  It takes hard work coming from all different areas in your life that are collectively working together to successfully manage Mental Illness. For example, it’s necessary to look for the doctor that truly cares about their patients and fulfills your expectations. Not all doctors become highly invested in you or your wellbeing and it’s hard not to feel like your relationship with your doctor boils down to being just a name in a file that they reading right before they come into your room for your appointment. It takes time and commitment before finding that doctor who will guide you into finding that right cocktail of medications and/or a routine that works for you.

I learned this after being put on medications and anti-psychotics that made my illness worse. Throughout my life, I’ve tried over 8 depression medications, one mood stabilizer, and one antipsychotic medication. After about one week on a mood stabilizer, I was experiencing hallucinations and that scared me to death so I took those out of the picture asap. I managed 8 months of being on Abilify (my Bipolar 2 medication) before I noticed that my moods and depression had not been any better than before I started medications.  In fact, for me personally, I was experiencing psychosis and impulsive traits that I hadn’t ever experienced before. The psychosis features alone scared me. I explained to my psychiatrist that I strongly felt the medication wasn’t working and after monitoring some of my symptoms over the last 8 months, I wasn’t even certain I had been properly diagnosed. After talking some more, she wanted to test me for ADHD because both the disorders have very similar features and are commonly misdiagnosed.  But, before I could try something else or continue being tested for ADHD– I was reaching a point in pregnancy where they didn’t have enough research on the long-term effects of taking antipsychotic medications while pregnant and so I was given the option to stay on them or wean off them until after pregnancy. I decided to come off of them.

It was after about two months that I began realizing my moods were becoming much more stable. I still have bad days where my moods fluctuate for no reason. But, I had zero psychosis episodes and bouncing between depression and hypomania seemed to have completely disappeared.  My family and friends even began to notice a change in my demeanor and commented that I reminded them of the “old Carrie” or I “seemed happier”. After a few months of being off my Bipolar medication,  I began to wonder if my depression medication was necessary.  I felt confident about weaning myself off only because I had been focusing on managing my triggers and becoming more aware of what stressors triggered my Depressive episodes. So I slowly weaned myself off that medication as well (Cymbalta). It’s been about 4 months since I’ve been off the medications.  

While 4 months isn’t the longest time, I have felt more myself these past 4 months than I have in a long, long time. I was terrified to be off medication because so many people have different experiences and there is always the risk you’ll become worst than you were before. In the back of my mind, I wondered if I was setting myself up for a disaster. But nothing changes if nothing changes, right? I was so scared of what might happen if coming off medication, but I’ve learned a lot too. That fear led me to find the motivation I needed to learn and focus hard on finding my triggers. I discovered more about what I can do to ease a depression episode when I feel it coming on.

Our healthcare system for Mental Health is far better than it was in the past, but we still have a 7d080dcafe04bdd69543a82b4384d31flong way to go. If I didn’t spend time buying books and researching data on my own– I’m positive I’d still be on a medication that was worsening my Bipolar disorder instead of helping it. The few steps below are what I’ve learned most recently through my Mental Health adventure:

  • Building a support team that will be honest with you is key.
  • Advocating for yourself – despite the stigma or feeling less than because you’re not the doctor.
  • Getting second opinions from doctors, family, people who can relate
  •  Doing the research and educating yourself on your triggers and stressors are so important. In my experience, I am easily moved into a depression if I have too much on my plate. Sometimes they’re simple things like If I don’t sleep enough or If I say yes to every invite that comes my way. I realized these things and began to make it my job to work hard at managing them. It’s a daily practice, but it’s my version of self-love and self-care. Getting my nails done and hair done is always a great treat, but keeping my mental health stable is so much more rewarding.
  • Don’t feel selfish for taking the time to dive into YOU. After all, nobody will love and care for you better than you can.

    Until next time,
    Namaste
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